diary of a breakup

a comment on the post about throwing out things she gave me

“why did you do that? did you do it to forget about her cos it hurt? i’m curious cos my ex did the same thing and i wanna know why…”

it was a cleansing thing. some of what i threw out were letters. she told me how much she loved me and was in love with me and even if she meant it then, they would remind me that now she doesn’t feel that way. and it would be hard to read them now without feeling like they were in some way lies. another thing i threw out was just a little cardboard box. it wasn’t anything special. just the holder of something else she gave me. i had been using it to keep change in. throwing it out was kind of symbolic act. i didn’t like feeling like i had to depend on her just to get through my day to day life.

it wasn’t really to forget, but to make myself independent from the life i had with her. i didn’t want to just be that same person with less. half a couple without the other half. i wanted to be my own me and i think getting rid of those things will help me get there.

i hope that helps answer your question.